Victorious Fall

I kills me
It literally kills me
I slowly feel the wrapping of my soul unwinding
It tears and pulls at the puppet stings of my heart
It ways of cerebral cortex of my memories
It mocks me
And rigorously dreams me
Breaking me
It sinks me
Slowly fall deeper and deeper
Into that moment
I am frozen
With a daunting memory
That echos over me
Watching me every move
As I struggle to grab hold of my sanity
But yet still frozen and sinking
I am corpse in shallow water
Brick in bowl of jello
A grain of sand in the windy dessert
Asking why am I hear
Why cant I move
Why am I froze
Why cant any one reach me to save me
I know they can see me
I cant move my mouth or scream
But the tears are suddenly and abruptly
Falling
The faller so hard that I sink into the salty
Water of my own tears
I struggle to me to save my self
But still I fall
Deeper and deeper into my sunken place
And still I ask
Whay am I hear
Why wont anyone help me
But no one answers
I fall
I fall
I fall
Slowly and effortlessly
Yet it dams my very spirit
And still I fall
Down
Down
Down
On my way down
I see your reflection
Looking down on me
Grinning at me
With a look of satisfaction and completeness
And in glips of you I saw all I need to know
You put me here
You pushed me to my sunken place
You destroyed me heart
With salty kisses
Which lead me to this ironc demise of my
Joy
You control my reactions to love
You poised my love for self and men
You tainted the purity of my only salvation in my soul mate by what you did to me
You took my innocence and morphed it into ruin and damaged goods
And just like that I realized
No will save me
No will cry for the battered
If it not their fight
I have to be my own hero
I have to dig
I have to save me
I have to see me
So I reach
So I struggle
So I break the strings of your damage to
I pull the strings from your reach
By taking control of my Journey
I pull my way up to the surface
And I look you dead in you surprised face and I stand loud and proud
And recite the speech I have wanted to say to you for years
I am strong and am beautiful
And I am special
And even though you robbed me of my innocence
You could never take my empire
I stand hear infront of you
I didn't drowned
Not a failure
Like you said I would be
But I am Victorious
So It no longer kills me
It gives me life
It literally gives me life