I miss you

They say you cant miss what you never had
Or so I have heard
But How is I have missed you all my life
But to each other we haven't spoken one word
How is it I miss seeing your face staring back at me
Even though I haven't seen you in person
Tell me how can that be
How can I miss your smile
Crave your confidence
Dream of your power
Hour after hour
I guess for you
I shall keep searching
Hoping to stream your love
And expand on all the visuals
Hoping to gain you wisdom
And unfamiliar Glow
Hoping to embody you past present and future
Your are the ghost of my future that I dont mind having a visit with
You are the visions for my self
My plans and my identity
You are the version of my perfected and polished
I work every day to come closer to you
And pray that my goals wont be demolished
You are the Healthy happy me in the future
You are my north star and I am walking strait to you
So how is you can miss something you never had
I cant explain in just a simple phrase
It like a father meeting his child for the first
Time after being locked up for 5 year
It the want and the need
The Anticipation for a better day
You give me the life theam to think win win
I will share my Journey of the past to make a better me
I am on a voyage on sparkling pristine ocean of blue glitter
And beyond this Is a place where i stand facing my self
Relishing that this thing
The thing that I have been missing
That I never had was me
The me that battled my success to afraid
Of the opinions swirling in my head dancing like noodles in alphabet soup
And the me that is the happy me
A savior that allows me to keep going on the right track
The me that says
I think I can
I think I can
I think I can
I know I can
This Is the me I missed
This is the me I am working to be
Every second
Every minute
Every Action
Every thought
Is to see you